whenever i think i am out of it..i get more into it..its not sad anymore...its not difficult ....but its hollow...its like a vaccum...and the most difficult part is that i am responsible for every bit that has happened...and its all because of my joblessness...its jus me..and me...whose done the whole thing...is there no way out...is it what i'll have to feel all my life..will i never be able to let go....will i never be strong enough...cant there be some virus which shall corrupt my memory..and quarantine the data...i want to forget it all...i want it new...i want it wiped...i want it to be erased so badly that there are no marks...no sign of existence..no image in the mind..no feeling the heart..no confusion in the mind..not a bit...not a lit..( donno wat it means..it was jus going well with the line) i want it out...forever and ever...jus for ever.....how i wish ....what i meant was 100% what i wished.....